“Baby I know you ain’t looking for a hit and run
You need someone to hold when the nights getting cold, let me be the one
Ain’t no rush we ain’t got to hurry no
Take our time, ’cause you ain’t got to worry
About me and believe that I got what you need and it meant something
And I won’t stop there, no, I won’t“
AJ McLean – Boy And A Man
Words. Words usually come easier but I’ll be damned if I’ve been able to find the right ones lately. I’ve tried a couple of times but I couldn’t find the right ones. I’ve sat and tapped away a few times and there’s probably a paragraph or two laying around somewhere but none of them fit. By the time this post shows up (aka tomorrow afternoon) most of you will already know what’s kept me mostly quiet lately. The best part about it is if you’ve paid very close attention you could have put it together yourself. Maybe you did. Props to you if you caught it. 🍀💜
With me going from Believe Me That The Storm Is Coming Down to And You Can’t Spell “Awesome” Without “Me” it’s kind of interesting to see everything that ended up following it. All you really have to do is look back and see what those two entail to understand where I was and where I ended up. I’ve wondered if I shouldn’t have held onto the second one longer, but I know if did I wouldn’t be where I am. I do think you should definitely check it out though. I’m proud of that one, it’s positive, has good meaning (IMO), and the song’s pretty damn good. You could say it started a sea of change and it’s not one that I necessarily expected. I think that’s what makes it feel the way it does.
(Also and totally irrelevant to this post, but yea long blog titles lately. They’ve worked and I’ve liked them, sorry they’re longer either way though.)
You can plan, and plan and plan some more, but if it’s not right then it doesn’t matter. Your plan will fail if it’s wrong from the start. It’s like a puzzle, you can’t really make the wrong pieces fit and end up with the right result. The problem is you can be told that a million times but you don’t truly understand it until you experience it. Sometimes it only takes one time. Sometimes it takes more. None of us are the same. The greatest difference between life and an actual puzzle is the pieces can change and it’s on you to change them if that’s what it takes. Some may call it effort, some call it luck, call it what you want to.
A conversation I had with Brennan recently kind of fed into this post. I’ve made a lot of decisions since I came back two years ago. They’re all plastered across this very blog if you don’t believe me. I changed my mind and though as Believe Me That The Storm Is Coming Down will lay out, it didn’t go the way I thought, it had a reason. One I wouldn’t have found had none of it happened. Every little thing happens for a reason.
I made mistakes, ones I accepted then, and ones I accept now. I did not get there on my own though. I had some help in sorting through a few things and the logic behind it was the truth. I needed to be able to accept where I was wrong and own that fact. I did it. I’ve owned it and learned from it. You should trust that too because I know for a fact that she would not be standing here right now if I hadn’t. She can see through the bullshit and if I was giving any I’d have heard about it already. Am I perfect? Hell no. But I am persistent. I’ll try, I’ll fail, and I’ll get up again. Over and over.
This post literally could go on forever but the main point is a lot has changed. More than I would have ever guessed it could. For the first time in a very long time, I feel completely clean. The loose ends are tied up. Those mistakes were made and they are owned. There’s a quote that’s quite fitting here and though I normally use those on Facebook, I think this one belongs here.
“Everyone wants to be someone’s sun, to light up someone’s life. But why not be someone’s moon, to brighten in the darkest hour.”
The hurricane is over. The sun, moon, and stars are shining bright. I’ll always love the sun, but the biggest debt is to my moon. Follow closely because this story is just beginning and with the sun and moon on my side I have no end in sight. Today is a new day and you haven’t seen my best yet. We’re just getting started. Oh and yes I used a country song sung by a Backstreet Boy. You might not like it, but you’re going to have to deal with it. Remember it’s my rules here, checkmate.
Oh and because I’m not a fool, Happy Birthday babe. 💜
“I ain’t playing little games, I’m just trying to say
Girl that I’ve got a plan
‘Cause I know what you’re missing
Imma show you the difference between a boy and a man
Yeah, I know what you’re missing
Imma show you the difference between a boy and a man
Yes I am“
AJ McLean – Boy And A Man
Credits:
Pose: Focus Poses – Couple 146 ~ Carol Kling
~His~
Head: CATWA HEAD Victor [SL Neck] v3.2 ~ Catwa Clip
Head Applier: Clef de Peau.Clef de Peau.Cody T3 [CATWA] ~ Marcopol Oh
Hair: Stealthic – Baron (Brown) ~ Stealthic Resident
Hairbase: Stealthic – Male Hairbase ~ Stealthic Resident
Brows: Clef de Peau.Eyebrows v.32 Brown Omega [CATWA] Applier ~ Marcopol Oh
Eyes: Avi-Glam. Dramatic Eyes – Sky ~ Kendra Parfort
Ears: ^^Swallow^^ Punky Ears ~ Luciayes Magic
Beard: GA EG – Victor Bento Hipster Stache & Beard Medium – Sun ~ ElleEtGance Resident
Body: [Signature] Gianni Body – Body – v4.6 ~ Mona Delpiaz
Body Applier: Clef de Peau.Body Tight T3 ~ Marcopol Oh
Hands: [Signature] Gianni Body – Hands – v4.6 ~ Mona Delpiaz
Tattoo: Oxydate. Feed the Beast Tattoo_Bodies Applier ~ MonaSax95 Resident
Suit: L&B * GIANNIfit-Closed* L&B Marc Pinstripe Tuxedo Jacket ~ Paul LaPointe
Rings: **RE** Beast Rings – Signature Gianni ~ Crashnoww Resident ~ NEW @ FaMESHed (May 1-May 27)
Ring: MINIMAL – Ornament Ring [SIGNATURE] -Silver- ~ Ors Quan ~ NEW GACHA @ The Mens Dept (May 5-May 28)
~Hers~
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